How if the next hello won't come in a short while, I hope we won't separate so far away. God put use together but separate us with a distance mean something? Perhaps I won't be so close to you and miss you so much if I'm living next door to you.
Making a promise on the next date is hard, because I don't want to take it as a granted. It's not the reason that I scare I have not time to go for the next date, but I afraid that I'm not around any more. A promise is heavy, if you care, I know. I don't want myself to look forward a meet up and at last everything pull down.
I'm glad and bless for meeting you in life. Being a friend, to a best friend and a soul mate. I am sure that you know me to a higher level although we're not sticking together everyday, not chatting everyday, I'm sure you stalked me daily.(?) Being a best friend of mine is not easy, I'm not a very-easy-tolerate and easy going people. I can go mad in any second of time, I will not bother about you when you really do something over my limit. But luckily we're still fine now. I cherish time to stay together with you because even when we're not talking, the atmosphere is not weird and I'm not squeezing my brain juice to think of what to talk for the next second in order to break the silence. You're like a mum, a big sister of mine, you're not mentioning but I know you worried that I got my gastric pain again during famine 30. Forcing me to eat agin and again just to make sure I'm alright, but I hold on to my principle. To make you feel assured, I try hard not to mention about how pain I'm during the camp because I want everything go fine. I'm not someone who like to bring trouble to people, as you know. Encounting you in my life, I consider myself a lucky one.
I'm playing with my phone when I'm walking, eating just because I'm bored. You're with your own stuff and I don't feel like disturbing all that. Haha. You said that we're talking but not chatting. But I sincerely hope that, one day we can sleep in one bed chatting deep into heart. You kept asking me when will I going oversea study in every meet up that we had throughout the year, but my answer is always the same- I don't know. Actually the offer letter was already laid in my mail box, how can I don't know about that? I hate the moment when we need to say goodbye, for a really long time of not meeting up. Maybe a year or a couple of years. I choose to not let you know and so that I can go off soundly. You will hate me for a moment, but I want you to remember how crazy I'm when im around but not the crying face when we're hugging in the airport sending me off. Let the date remain unknown and I can go without a tear rolling down across the cheeks.
To my best friend, I'm blessed to have you, although we're apart but we're together.
_szeyeeM
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