New year resolution.

This come a bit late, but still it's the first month of January. 

As you know, last year, I'm so super busy with my study. I almost used up my time to soak myself in a stack and a stack of books. People said: if you survive A levels, you can lie down and watch Disney during your degree. I don't know how true is this, but I hope it was. I will not hesitate to say that I enjoy last year to the maximum. I knew a group of geniuses who always be my side when I need somebody to answer my questions. I attend many activities that's out of my plan. I learnt a lot. To wrap up, 2014 is another fabulous year of my life-18th year of my book of life. 

So here we go looking forward to this brand new 2015. I'm still a college student, but there's just another half year to go! Sit back to study really hard for my coming trial and A2 final. It will definitely be a hardcore, but to place myself at a prestigious university for the nest five years, I must ace this. 

I believe everyone will do a New Year Resolutions list to remind yourself what's the goal of this year. So here am I. 

1. Study hard

2. Graduated college together with my buddies in coming June

3. A graduation trip to Sarawak with buddies 

4. Get a healthy body, don't get sick anymore 

5. Be good to my family, because I knew there's no much time leave before studying aboard 

6. Have a good hang out with my bestie 

7. All the best in the coming university life over UK :D 

You can do this well, Michelle :D 

_szeyeeM 

London 1:51am

If I got the Cambridge interview for architecture, I will probably spending RM 5000 airplane ticket to London now. Alone, with all the architecture knowledge  and my luggage, on the airplane, busy preparing for my interview which will held at Cambridge university at 8 of December. I will stay at one of the accomadation that arrange be admission office and enjoying the chilling freezing temperature there. Maybe I will get the chance to feel how snow is? 

But anyway, I'm still here in Malaysia. 

Is my life just consist of past year books?

I'm a January intake student. When the moment I register for Cambridge A-level programme, I have the mind set that this course will be super intense, tiring and stress. There will be no fun at all. The first day I stepped into Taylor's college, I knew there will be something different in my life. Why? The environment, people, lecturers here are much more different comparing with my secondary school. Imagine there's a full-apparatus lab that I can enjoy myself in it, there's a hug reflective center that I can settle down and carry our discussion with my friends,there's an extremely cold library that I stay back almost everyday to study. This amazed me at first. 

Have to admit that, my A-level life, is just consist of stacks of different subjects past year books until now. I didn't join clubs. In my opinion, having an outstanding A-level result will secure me for a better future. This is the only way I can locate myself in a well-known university, the ticket to the future. So, at the Club Recruitment Day, I decided not to sign up for any clubs, I need to concentrate on my study. Am I regret now for not joining a single clubs? Yes I do. But my result prove to me that, yes my decision is right. I knew that I'm a responsible person. If I hold a position in club, I will try my best to get the task perfect. In between, I need to balance my time in study. I can't. 

Do I have fun in the process of study? I would said that. Study is fun, I enjoy it to the limit especially with troop of fabulous buddies. They taught me a lot. Teamwork, hardworking, consistence performance, determination and etc. Throughout this one year, we sit back together to prepare for semester exam, AS trials examination and final examination. We buried ourself in tonnes of past year books, stayed back every night at college to struggle with books, wake up at 5:30am and head to college again. The chemistry between us build up invisibly. If you ask me, is this the life I want? I will say that, buddy, just one and a half year for us to struggle like this, why not? 

You would proclaim that my A-level life is boring after reading this. But, let me tell you, I think that this is what I supposed to go through. For my future, for my architect dream, for me enter the top university, to prove to parents and lecturers, I need to do this. Do judge, I love my life now because I choose to go through it in this way. I knew that, in university, I will catch up the part I missed now. 

Mata Palajaran Umum ( Malaysian Study)

As long as you're a Malaysian, you need to do this during your college level or university level. 

I do this since the first month of college until now, it's already one year and it haven't end. For the past few years, students just need to do this for one semester, but when come to me, this is a disaster. You don't know how much I hate to attend this class. The contents are super boring and useless. Yea, it's about history of Malaysia, as a Malaysian I supposed to be patriotic enough and attended every single class. But what, A-level man, we got not enough time to struggle with biology, chemistry, psychology and etc and here come an extra. 

Now, I am doing my third semester of Malaysian study, it's call personal development programme (PDP). Lecturer said it would definitely help us in our way of university application. But hold on, we already done our application and now we're just waiting for the university to reply us. What use with this anymore?  Plus, it would help to develop our personality. Come on, we're teenager who know how to proceed our life, we know how to handle this.

 For me, what important right now is my A2 final exam which will go on five months later and I haven't even on the half way of it. So please, stop this stupid programme. Nobody like it, don't waste our time and the lecturer's precious time. We appreciated it. 

Sorry for being querulous. 

I need this to shoo my bad mood away. Between Christmas is 23 days after! 

Downs

I sent an email to Cambridge to confirm about my interview session which will occur in a couple of weeks. I had been swipe through my email this few days to make sure that I didn't miss out any single email from all the universities. But I get nothing from Newnham college and I wrote an email to them. 

The reply I get is in my expectation. " We appreciate your hard work of applying to Cambridge. Your current academic historys were all well done. But we can't make it to interview you." 

I didn't feel down when the moment I get this reply. My mind told me:" don't feel sorrow Michelle, at least you tried, at least you got the courage to try out this part that will definitely be a reminiscer in your future."  I didn't regret to fill in COPA form three months ago. I still thanks to those who encourage me to do this. 

Daddy mummy, don't worry about me. I'm still the A level student who doing well in life. Without this, my life still go on. I still can go into other reputable universities other than Cambridge. Sorry I wasted your money to apply and send in all the document to UK. But I know you guys are always with me, right? 

Yes, getting into Cambridge is my dream. I won't let this dream fade out. Continue working hard in life is definite. Life still go on, this is just a tinny little part of life.

Believe every single thing that occur in myself, because I knew that it comes with a reason. 

Architecture was still my dream, and I'm working towards it. 

        

More than friend.

The one who I cherish the most in life other than my family members.  

I was over the moon to meet you again because this is out of expectation. I cherish every moment for us to meet up and hang out because I knew that the counts for us to hang getting less and less. 

I will go there again if there's a chance :D 

Thanks for the every minute of happiness you gave me. I treasured it because it's hard to find another one like you at subang or other place else. 

Take a break in the middle of hectic life.

After three weeks of antigenic concealment in hostel because of the A levels final exam, I missed my family so much. Miss the brothers, miss the selfie-daddy, miss the mummy. 

They paid a short visit to subang last Saturday to send off my brother for an interview, and of course they brought me for an outing! 

Seriously, I had missed a lot of fun time with them. I can't be beside them for 24-hour daily like before. This make me really cherish the time with them and no more quarrel between us. Because I knew that, every moment spent with them counted. 

Haha. Yes, they bought me a new phone-iPhone 6! Idk they come here just to buy me a phone seriously. I didn't complaint about my phone before, I didn't demand for a new phone, but they said is time for me to change the old-style iPhone 4s. So, thanks mummy for the phone! 

Don't know since when, my album is full of family selfie. They're addicted. To try off the future of the phone, they started to take tones of selfies with my phone. I think after this, my phone will be their personal camera. And that's the first group of photos in my phone :) 

Time with parents and family counted. Be kind to them. Parents didn't owe us a thing, we as a kid does owe them something. Do our part, parents brought us to this world. We can't see the front story of our parents' life, they couldn't see our ending of life too. 

cherish them :)