Emeritus

"I have no regret. I have spent my life, so much of it, building up this country. There's nothing more than I need to do. At the end of he day, what I have got? A successful Singapore. What I have given up? My life." said the late Singapore's first prime minister, Mr Lee Kuan Yew. 

Hello fello reader, I'm here again instead of studying for my trial exam. ( I have my last paper tomorrow! ) Anyway, the death of Mr. Lee hit my core of heart and it brought my thought ups and downs. Although I'm not a Singaporean, I am a Malaysian who lives just beside Singapore separated by the customs. Despite, can't deny that the small little island which is smaller than a New York town have fully developed and turn from a British colony to now a prosper country with their own identity. Salute to this man who had brought Singapore out of Malaya during the year of 1965, and lead the country so well until today. We need to admit that he did a right decision to declare independence from Federal of Malaya. He made the country shone on the world map by the name of Singapore. 

It's not easy to bring up a family, nor a company, what to say to bring up a country. Mr. Lee meant to spend the whole life to his land. He used up his life to have meeting with British man, thinking of how to turn the status of country to a higher one. He hold on his vows. If you have been to Singapore, you will love the place for sure. A place surrounded by greenery, a place which is rubbish-free, a place which everyone treat you politely. Yes, this is all founded by the late. 

" work until you no longer need to introduce yourself." 

This sentence hit my thought strongly. Who don't know Mr. Lee as the first prime minister of Singapore? If there's a day, I do not need to do a simple introduction " hello my name is Michelle..." and people will automatically come to me and call out my name involuntary, that's mean I have a little success in my life. I hope I can achieve that one day,  to appreciate by other with honour because of my contributions to a country or to the world. I'm just like a tiny sand on the desert, like a discrete particle among all the photons in the air. I don't born to be perfect, but I born to be someone. I'm building up an awesome castle and I'm the planner, the architect, the designer. And till the end of my life, I can welcome people to step into my castle proudly. Yes, it's good to have a dream in life. But dream without action is just like a pool with water. By your little actions day by day, castle may be getting bigger and stand still on the earth, provided with a good foundation. 

You can't be perfect, because being perfect, you have no chance to improve and you're not Him. You not need to be perfect. Being a perfectionist for something is alright. But if being perfect make your life harder, why no just have some flaws to make it more interesting? A glass without slashes  is beautiful, but a mirror with some scratches prove it's history. Instead of weeping and sheding tear everyday, why not to live like a sunflower, growing toward the sun and bring hope to the surrounding? Flaws and mistakes knocked someone down at the point of time, but remember to stand up after some time and rebuild the castle. No matter how sulphur dioxide is going to corrode the castle, you as the architect must take action to rebuild it and to preserve it until the last second you inhale oxygen.

Respect life, live life. Your life will turn up to respect and cherish by other one day. Like how Singaporeans are paying tribute to Mr. Lee. I want to make my last day of life in the Earth like him. 

I believe in " Be quite, let success make noise." 

Send my deep consolation and tribute to Mr. Lee, the legend. 

_szeyeeM 

Eternity

. "Stay eternity"

What come across your mind when this word appeared in front of you? A person, an incident or a love story? Love sealed for eternity in somebody life. An indefinitely friendship. A last long kind of memory. An unbreakable sensation... Do thing last forever. I doubt so when it come across friendship. Friend zone built up, it breaks sometime, it maintain till the end of your life the another way round. Different people own a definition of friendship. Some of you seem it as a beneficial tool to fix yourself into a better one, or as a ladder to climb higher, as a bridge to cross over a river, as a tower to see a more breathtaking view. Contrary, one' will take it as a promise or an honor. They planted their sincerity as part of the companionship. They put in their time to built up a robust and still foundation for the acquaintanceship. I hated people who invest a friendship and start to get interest every month like what bank did. 

From the day you decide to go onto this ship together with he/she, do respect it as an important part of your life. Isn't something that you can take it and just throw it away like a Barbie doll when you don't want. As mentioned, treat it as though it's an affiance. You not need to give a sweet long sentence to promise this relationship, what you need to do is just show an action that you cherish it. 

"Noting will stay in life forever."

I admitted that I am kind of people who like socializing. I can just smile and started a conversation with a stranger when I walk in college. Or I can just wave and say hi with you and I assumed that we are acquaintance. My definition of friend is as easy as what we written in an academic essay: " Friends are those who tapped you on shoulder when you're at the verge of life. Friend is the one who shine you a flash light when you're in a dark cave." But, friends come and leave, soundly.  I want to make it stagnant but I can't. 

"Can it last longer?"

I received an conditional offer from University of Bath to study a BcShonor of    Architecture last few days. I thank God for His Iove towards me. He shone an effulgence to my life, like a star glimpsing in dark. Feeling appreciate at first few seconds, I felt upset later. This fresh stage of life will bring a brand new me. Being a freshman in university and even a country is not easy. The dilemmas I need to come across are out of my expectation. From a meet up after months with my bestie until a gathering just during special occasions such as fridn's wedding dinner, his 21th birthday celebration... I don't want thing to be like this. I knew this will happen. "Distance can prove how strong a friendship is, but it can also show how fragile it's." As a typical nerdy, I don't think I will spend a significant time to have a skype call with my friends or a long whatsapp conversation during study time. I will rather choose to sleep my head off in the fluffy bed or go for a hang out at the city beside. But this come with condition, if you're someone who is important in my life, yes, it's true that I will spend my time sitting down in front of the webcam, listening to your problems or feeling your happiness over there for hours...

"Thing might change when time pass" 

I hope the bond between us is a disulphide bond but not van de waals force. 

_szeyeeM 

The pre Chinese New Year celebration

. 13 Feb. Oh do you know #FEB13STYLE? Swiftie here!!! Stay tune to the releasing of STYLE music album. 

But I'm not going to tell you this today. 

Was here to tell you about our pre-CNY celebration at college today with my gang of fabulous classmates. Chinese New Year is in one week time. So we planned to have a Yee Shang session in classroom to arouse the CNY atmosphere. 4A* here and there when we're mixing the ingredients of the Yee Shang. Yes we need this 4A* deadly to enter top universities. I knew we can! Funny to say that my classmate, Angel even brought a mini speaker to class so that she can played songs during the session. The songs worked, we felt as though today is the first day of Chinese New Year. Moreover, my sarawakian classmates who haven't been home for half year are so excited to go on plane. I can feel how happy they're to meet their family. Safe flight people! 

Second time to celebrate Chinese New Year with group2 mates and probably is the last time. Although we're all stressing for coming A2, relaxation is needed among the pack timetable. Group 2 peeps are the most fabulous classmates I ever met, I can say that. They not seem like nerd, they socialize, but together we can score flying colour in exam. That's the great part of us. Lecturers might seem us as a gang of monkeys ( we're super noisy in chemistry and math class but pin-drop-silent when come to biology and physic class, idk why.) 

Furthermore, here's we go with some photo sharing session. 

***drumssss. She's Angel, my best study partner in crime and I slept on her bed wore her clothes before this. 

Dani, the fabulous Indian bae. 

Michelle sook cheng, who shared the same name with me :D 

And this is our ass class rap. But his is busier than the class rap. He's a smart ass but always like to say that he's not clever. **BUUUUU

Bess, another smart girl in our class. She got all 90+ in her AS tho. (Scary) 

She's Audrey, the librarian we call her. Because she's will sit at the fix place at library to study everyday after class without miss. Super smart genius of class. 

Sukwen, my best deskmate who I will crazy with during class. She heard lots of cursing from me about the lecturer. Haha

Dalanggggg, the POTD! He's Ryan. I knew this picture is like an ads, photo credited to angel! Why we took this photo? Because both of us wear the checker shirt and both from uniqlo! So basically what we want to bring out is an UNIQLO ads feel! 

Lastly, here we go with out group photo! 

To the end of the day of college, I will miss this troop of awesome people who appear in my 18th year of life :') 

5 days to CNY. 

_szeyeeM 

A present.

Hello peeps! 

Do you ever come across a brainstorm session to think of what to give your bestie as his/her birthday present? Something that she likes? Something that's very expensive? Or something that's out of her expectation? 

I have this one and only bestie who having her birthday a month ago. We did a birthday surprise at KLCC for her last year. But this year she's having her final on her birthday so nothing will do for the celebration. I past my box of present to her friends and called them to pass to her. I have no idea what time they will hold a celebration for her but they did. 

Just by last week, they are having the birthday surprise to her ( I think so) because I seriously don't know a single thing about that. They posted some photos related to the celebration on Facebook and I can see the smile and happiness that shone on her face, despite she's crying. 

Are you curious of what I presented her? 

Okay. Her we go with a brief idea of the gift. It's actually a grey colour Mickey T from UNIQLO ( she likes Mickey very much), followed by a Mickey nano Lego, the photos that we took together before this in a polaroid style and 20 typical " open this when..." letters. Wow it sounds a lot right? Actually this is not a lot if you know that I'm not going to celebrate her 20,21,22,23,24th birthday together with her because probably I will go study aboard this coming September. So, this is what I can do in prior so that she can feel the existence of me when I'm not beside her. ( this sounds lesbian, but admittedly we're in this kind of friendship :D) 

I knew that she's not those who will show her happiness in front of everyone, but as long as I can feel she likes what I give sincerely, it's worth enough for me to squeez my brain juice just to think of the picture of this present days and nights two months ago.   

" I give my best for my bestie. I give the imaginary present of my own birthday to someone who is important to me besides my family. This is just because I cherish this precious friendship which nothing can or will replace it." 

Yea, so if you're struggling over what gift to give for a people who is crucial to you. Here is a hint: do it in all sincerity, if you know he/she well, they will like whatever you send them. 

So sorry that I didn't manage to capture a picture of the gift, people. 

That's all for now, bye. 

_szeyeeM 

Chinese calligraphy

Chinese New Year is just around the corner. As a Malaysian Chinese, we do celebrate Chinese New Year grandly. It's a significant festival for us as it symbolizes the starting of a new year in lunar calendar. Whilst the approaching of this festival, there's a lot of Chinese associations and local government who busy organizing sort of Chinese New Year programmes such as calligraphy competitions, lantern making competitions and etc to arouse the atmosphere of the festival. Plus, Chinese calligraphy is a tradition that passed down from our ancestors. A pair of Chinese calligraphy will paste at the both sides of the front door to shoo away the bad luck and it normally wrote with the words which carry good meanings. 

I had participated in two of the calligraphy competitions yesterday. It was not in the plan at first because I was actually sitting for my IELTS test on Saturday and didn't plan to go back to my home. Out of the sudden my mum rang a call to me and informed me that daddy will come subang to pick me up and want me to involve in the competition. I was reluctant, because I hate last minute inform like seriously. But still, I was at the competition venue on Sunday. 

As a 19 year-old teen, I am no longer qualified to enter secondary school category. I need to put myself in the situation that I gonna compete with all those professional teachers and old folks with sophisticated skills. I got no confidence at all when the first minute I step into the competition venue. But my mind told me that," Michelle, prove yourself. Dad and mum are there to see you on the stage to get back trophy. Make them proud." 

For the first competition to the next competition, I was in rush. I only manage to have thirty minutes to complete my work in the first competition and I have to go for the next one which is approximately 15 minutes from the previous venue. Luckily I have enough time to finish both of them on my level. I was satisfied with my master pieces . And there's where confidence built up. 

When the moment my name get called on the prize giving ceremony, the smile that bloom on my parents' face was priceless. I feel the proudness they have on brother and my performance. Not to forget about my little brother who also took part in the same competitions as me under secondary category. He did performs well too! We were over the moon. 

Ps. I got a second place for both of the competitions. My brother got second place and consolation prize. 

It's worth to spend my Sunday morning in such a meaningful event with my family. I knew that, no matter what happens, parents will always be with me and support me. They are the one who will be with you till the end of the day. Even a morning with them is enough to fill my memories with happiness. Cherish the time with parents.

A show of photos of our master pieces :D 

Oh have to sleep now. Have a tight sleep readers! 

_szeyeeM 

Giving up is not in the list

The first day of February jot a memorable one. I went for my first half marathon of life which is organized by Nike. It came with a theme of We Run KL 2015. If you're one among the 10k runner, be proud, because this run held just in three countries among other elses and Malaysia is one of them. 

I am pretty looking forward this enormous event and training hard since months ago in order to survive throughout the run. Step into gym three times per week do help in building up my stamina and my overall running performance. From running a 3k in 30minutes to 20 minutes, from gasping for air until the day I can jump down from treadmill after one hour without feeling dizziness. People said they going to gym to own a slim body, I said I want a healthy and fit body. Exercise is not for others' benefit, is for your own good. Make it as a habit, you will realize the little change in your body and day by day, you can be the fit one. 

Flag off at 5:30am, 10k of participants running across the starting line. I run across the morning breezing wind. Keeping the consistent pace throughput the first 10km, my body performed well. Run across the highway road used up my energy as it's an inclined pathway. It's fine when the moment I get to eat a banana and drink the hypertonic drink. 

As a first time half marathon runner, I used up 3 hours for the whole journey. The timing will show a decrease if I put myself on the treadmill consistently. Will definitely train hard in order to show a better running for the next half marathon. 

The other runners taught me that, it's not the matter of winning or losing in the run, the important thing is you did enjoy the process, although you are the last one to run across the finishing line, you're still the winner because you completed the mission. Stop, and take a rest if you really can't make it. Continue running as long as you still able to. Giving up is forever not in the list. Present yourself a clap if you make it to the finishing line. 

Despite all the injuries and tiredness after the event, it was an unforgettable experience.

Another accomplishment unlocked! 

_szeyeeM

New year resolution.

This come a bit late, but still it's the first month of January. 

As you know, last year, I'm so super busy with my study. I almost used up my time to soak myself in a stack and a stack of books. People said: if you survive A levels, you can lie down and watch Disney during your degree. I don't know how true is this, but I hope it was. I will not hesitate to say that I enjoy last year to the maximum. I knew a group of geniuses who always be my side when I need somebody to answer my questions. I attend many activities that's out of my plan. I learnt a lot. To wrap up, 2014 is another fabulous year of my life-18th year of my book of life. 

So here we go looking forward to this brand new 2015. I'm still a college student, but there's just another half year to go! Sit back to study really hard for my coming trial and A2 final. It will definitely be a hardcore, but to place myself at a prestigious university for the nest five years, I must ace this. 

I believe everyone will do a New Year Resolutions list to remind yourself what's the goal of this year. So here am I. 

1. Study hard

2. Graduated college together with my buddies in coming June

3. A graduation trip to Sarawak with buddies 

4. Get a healthy body, don't get sick anymore 

5. Be good to my family, because I knew there's no much time leave before studying aboard 

6. Have a good hang out with my bestie 

7. All the best in the coming university life over UK :D 

You can do this well, Michelle :D 

_szeyeeM