Token of appreciation

“I wonder if the snow loves the trees and fields, that it kisses them so gently? And then it covers them up snug, you know, with a white quilt; and perhaps it says "Go to sleep, darlings, till the summer comes again.” ― Lewis Carroll

If you're still stay alive in this world, you can feel the atmosphere of this earth, the gravitational force is still acting on you, there's too much that we need to appreciate for. First, thank God for your existence in this earth. Second, feel grateful for parent who bring you to this world after a ten months of pregnancy. Then, say thank you to everyone who appear in your life, either they had left your life or still along side you. Furthermore, express the gratitude to all the things that happen to let you reminisce after this. Thank for sunrise sunset, thank for rain falling and thunderstorm, thank for snowing and breezing wind. Summer come, winter left. But the next round of winter is coming. So why not to look forward and keep going, one day snow will back to your backyard covering the land with that white powdery colour. 

There are too many things turn up unexpectly happened in our life. You can't catch the shadow of them before they appear. Because the sun is not behind them, not letting you have a chance for viewing the silhouette before they appear in front of you. Applying the same theory, if you're the sun, then things will be different. Therefore, be cheerful like a sun, be friendly like the scorching sunlight, then everything  will automatically show their face in front of you. Scare to be as hot as sun? Then be the snow. To bring a sign of arctic whether to the land. To cold down the hot body. To bring happiness to the kid who like to build a snowman; be like Olaf. 

No matter what is happening in the next second, believe that it is He's will. God bring us to this world as a human with an aim, make your existence a significant one. 

_szeyeeM 

Nailed it down

Hello reader yup I'm here again after two days. 

I am now completely relaxing sitting on my bed, with my loved teddy bear and iPad in my hand. Last two days marked the end of my A level trial exam. Fiew, I feel like the two weeks of trials were really killing me down to the hell but fortunately I survived. Throughout the whole month of preparation, nope, I have to say that I started preparing for this trial when the day I started the A2 syllabus. My four fabulous lecturers keep throwing the same sentence to us: " Hey kid, A2 is hard. You need to work like insane for it." ( yes it sounds a little exaggerated but it's absolutely correct, I feel the power of their words now )

"Hey Michelle, don't keep stick your butt to the chair, come on, move a bit. Or not you will owning a big ass and an unhealthy body after scoring an excellent result in A level." my grandparents told me this every time when I went back home during weekend. I felt sorry to them as well as my parents because I feel stressed up and nearly screwed up for this trial and I give them a f shittty face every time when I meet them. I knew, I knew I need to turn myself into the normal me when I step into home, because there's the place where happiness blossomed, but I just can't make it. The massive pressure that acting on me is just like a hydroelectric turbine trying to generate the water by the high enormous hydropower. Anyway, I had passed through this critical time. I promised to give my body a couple days of rest after the days and nights of non stop studying. So I'm now giving myself a day of break and get out of the stack of past year books and doing things I like to do. 

I want to finish this drama, I want to watch that movie, I want to go to try out this restaurant, I want to go here, I want to do that... A lot and a lot of plans spinning over my brain. I knew it's impossible to get all of them in reality in this two weeks of study break ( I call it as study break because I don't want myself to sink into the relax mood and never float up to the surface and revise for my final ) I utter to myself : " Michelle, just one more month to final and you're done with this, please get it right and let it be a glory phase in your life."  

Ahran cho: " You're not helping out our team at all! "  

Leslie: " Can I finish my sentence without you jumping in there every time I say something. " 

From master chef season 5, conversation between an 18 year-old young lady and an 56 year-old man.

 

How you feel when you listen this dialog? Will they turn up become foe or ally?  Out of the expectation, this two people who always bickering over each other become friend at last. She chosen him as a teammate, he was luckily to have she as a helper in the top 3 elimination test. She turned out respecting he as a senior, as a friend. Who said a cat and dog can't be alliance? Who said penguin can't meet polar bear? Who said cow must be couple with bull? 

Yes you're right! I used up my time to catch up with master chef out of all the plans. This couple of people draw my attention throughout the whole culinary process. 19 episodes and Ahran made it until the 9th place and Leslie competed in the war, with quarrels among him and the teammates, until the semifinal. He's a sophisticated and phenomenal cook, I shall said that. Despite that he's sinister smile and all those sarcastic sentences, he made himself shone in the competition. He nailed most of the dishes, from fillet to a New York cheese cake although he claimed that he never baked a sponge cake before that.

On the other hand, Ahran said something that truly inspired me when she left master chef as the top 9 cook. " I'm just 18, I made it to here and I'm happy with it. I am here to tell all the young people outside who aged same as me that don't fail to chase after their dream." She yelled, she cried, she terrified by the raw moving prawn in the water tank, she's the youngest cook in the competition but she strong. I adored her attitude in the competition, the heart of never giving up until the last and the determination in her soul. I am sharing the same age as she, but I can't even handle a nice sunny side up egg but she can come out with all those stunning and scrumptious dishes within one hour time and be the team leader of one round of the competition. I am ashamed of myself at the point of time. A young lady is standing on the world standard kitchen chasing after her dreaming and I am studying my ass off at the library everyday. But I knew those things can't make their way together and compare with each other, just like we can't compare a chicken wing with a chicken breast. Everyone has their very own dream to achieve for. As long as you are breathing in oxygen, you must return something to this world. Nailed something seriously, hammer the nail strongly, make it goes through the layers of wound, build a strong foundation, and dream will build up stand strong in this blue planet. Thrown all those petty things  that's unnecessary, fill up brain with pillar of positive power, keep moving, don't give up, success is not far from you. 

I hope that my words in this post will insired all the young people outside a little who is on their pathway of life. It the post trigger your thought, you're on the right path! Don't always jealous of other's superb achievement, make them envy of yours too. 

I will end my words here today. Good night and have a good rest. 

_szeyeeM 

Emeritus

"I have no regret. I have spent my life, so much of it, building up this country. There's nothing more than I need to do. At the end of he day, what I have got? A successful Singapore. What I have given up? My life." said the late Singapore's first prime minister, Mr Lee Kuan Yew. 

Hello fello reader, I'm here again instead of studying for my trial exam. ( I have my last paper tomorrow! ) Anyway, the death of Mr. Lee hit my core of heart and it brought my thought ups and downs. Although I'm not a Singaporean, I am a Malaysian who lives just beside Singapore separated by the customs. Despite, can't deny that the small little island which is smaller than a New York town have fully developed and turn from a British colony to now a prosper country with their own identity. Salute to this man who had brought Singapore out of Malaya during the year of 1965, and lead the country so well until today. We need to admit that he did a right decision to declare independence from Federal of Malaya. He made the country shone on the world map by the name of Singapore. 

It's not easy to bring up a family, nor a company, what to say to bring up a country. Mr. Lee meant to spend the whole life to his land. He used up his life to have meeting with British man, thinking of how to turn the status of country to a higher one. He hold on his vows. If you have been to Singapore, you will love the place for sure. A place surrounded by greenery, a place which is rubbish-free, a place which everyone treat you politely. Yes, this is all founded by the late. 

" work until you no longer need to introduce yourself." 

This sentence hit my thought strongly. Who don't know Mr. Lee as the first prime minister of Singapore? If there's a day, I do not need to do a simple introduction " hello my name is Michelle..." and people will automatically come to me and call out my name involuntary, that's mean I have a little success in my life. I hope I can achieve that one day,  to appreciate by other with honour because of my contributions to a country or to the world. I'm just like a tiny sand on the desert, like a discrete particle among all the photons in the air. I don't born to be perfect, but I born to be someone. I'm building up an awesome castle and I'm the planner, the architect, the designer. And till the end of my life, I can welcome people to step into my castle proudly. Yes, it's good to have a dream in life. But dream without action is just like a pool with water. By your little actions day by day, castle may be getting bigger and stand still on the earth, provided with a good foundation. 

You can't be perfect, because being perfect, you have no chance to improve and you're not Him. You not need to be perfect. Being a perfectionist for something is alright. But if being perfect make your life harder, why no just have some flaws to make it more interesting? A glass without slashes  is beautiful, but a mirror with some scratches prove it's history. Instead of weeping and sheding tear everyday, why not to live like a sunflower, growing toward the sun and bring hope to the surrounding? Flaws and mistakes knocked someone down at the point of time, but remember to stand up after some time and rebuild the castle. No matter how sulphur dioxide is going to corrode the castle, you as the architect must take action to rebuild it and to preserve it until the last second you inhale oxygen.

Respect life, live life. Your life will turn up to respect and cherish by other one day. Like how Singaporeans are paying tribute to Mr. Lee. I want to make my last day of life in the Earth like him. 

I believe in " Be quite, let success make noise." 

Send my deep consolation and tribute to Mr. Lee, the legend. 

_szeyeeM 

Eternity

. "Stay eternity"

What come across your mind when this word appeared in front of you? A person, an incident or a love story? Love sealed for eternity in somebody life. An indefinitely friendship. A last long kind of memory. An unbreakable sensation... Do thing last forever. I doubt so when it come across friendship. Friend zone built up, it breaks sometime, it maintain till the end of your life the another way round. Different people own a definition of friendship. Some of you seem it as a beneficial tool to fix yourself into a better one, or as a ladder to climb higher, as a bridge to cross over a river, as a tower to see a more breathtaking view. Contrary, one' will take it as a promise or an honor. They planted their sincerity as part of the companionship. They put in their time to built up a robust and still foundation for the acquaintanceship. I hated people who invest a friendship and start to get interest every month like what bank did. 

From the day you decide to go onto this ship together with he/she, do respect it as an important part of your life. Isn't something that you can take it and just throw it away like a Barbie doll when you don't want. As mentioned, treat it as though it's an affiance. You not need to give a sweet long sentence to promise this relationship, what you need to do is just show an action that you cherish it. 

"Noting will stay in life forever."

I admitted that I am kind of people who like socializing. I can just smile and started a conversation with a stranger when I walk in college. Or I can just wave and say hi with you and I assumed that we are acquaintance. My definition of friend is as easy as what we written in an academic essay: " Friends are those who tapped you on shoulder when you're at the verge of life. Friend is the one who shine you a flash light when you're in a dark cave." But, friends come and leave, soundly.  I want to make it stagnant but I can't. 

"Can it last longer?"

I received an conditional offer from University of Bath to study a BcShonor of    Architecture last few days. I thank God for His Iove towards me. He shone an effulgence to my life, like a star glimpsing in dark. Feeling appreciate at first few seconds, I felt upset later. This fresh stage of life will bring a brand new me. Being a freshman in university and even a country is not easy. The dilemmas I need to come across are out of my expectation. From a meet up after months with my bestie until a gathering just during special occasions such as fridn's wedding dinner, his 21th birthday celebration... I don't want thing to be like this. I knew this will happen. "Distance can prove how strong a friendship is, but it can also show how fragile it's." As a typical nerdy, I don't think I will spend a significant time to have a skype call with my friends or a long whatsapp conversation during study time. I will rather choose to sleep my head off in the fluffy bed or go for a hang out at the city beside. But this come with condition, if you're someone who is important in my life, yes, it's true that I will spend my time sitting down in front of the webcam, listening to your problems or feeling your happiness over there for hours...

"Thing might change when time pass" 

I hope the bond between us is a disulphide bond but not van de waals force. 

_szeyeeM