London 1:51am

If I got the Cambridge interview for architecture, I will probably spending RM 5000 airplane ticket to London now. Alone, with all the architecture knowledge  and my luggage, on the airplane, busy preparing for my interview which will held at Cambridge university at 8 of December. I will stay at one of the accomadation that arrange be admission office and enjoying the chilling freezing temperature there. Maybe I will get the chance to feel how snow is? 

But anyway, I'm still here in Malaysia. 

Is my life just consist of past year books?

I'm a January intake student. When the moment I register for Cambridge A-level programme, I have the mind set that this course will be super intense, tiring and stress. There will be no fun at all. The first day I stepped into Taylor's college, I knew there will be something different in my life. Why? The environment, people, lecturers here are much more different comparing with my secondary school. Imagine there's a full-apparatus lab that I can enjoy myself in it, there's a hug reflective center that I can settle down and carry our discussion with my friends,there's an extremely cold library that I stay back almost everyday to study. This amazed me at first. 

Have to admit that, my A-level life, is just consist of stacks of different subjects past year books until now. I didn't join clubs. In my opinion, having an outstanding A-level result will secure me for a better future. This is the only way I can locate myself in a well-known university, the ticket to the future. So, at the Club Recruitment Day, I decided not to sign up for any clubs, I need to concentrate on my study. Am I regret now for not joining a single clubs? Yes I do. But my result prove to me that, yes my decision is right. I knew that I'm a responsible person. If I hold a position in club, I will try my best to get the task perfect. In between, I need to balance my time in study. I can't. 

Do I have fun in the process of study? I would said that. Study is fun, I enjoy it to the limit especially with troop of fabulous buddies. They taught me a lot. Teamwork, hardworking, consistence performance, determination and etc. Throughout this one year, we sit back together to prepare for semester exam, AS trials examination and final examination. We buried ourself in tonnes of past year books, stayed back every night at college to struggle with books, wake up at 5:30am and head to college again. The chemistry between us build up invisibly. If you ask me, is this the life I want? I will say that, buddy, just one and a half year for us to struggle like this, why not? 

You would proclaim that my A-level life is boring after reading this. But, let me tell you, I think that this is what I supposed to go through. For my future, for my architect dream, for me enter the top university, to prove to parents and lecturers, I need to do this. Do judge, I love my life now because I choose to go through it in this way. I knew that, in university, I will catch up the part I missed now. 

Mata Palajaran Umum ( Malaysian Study)

As long as you're a Malaysian, you need to do this during your college level or university level. 

I do this since the first month of college until now, it's already one year and it haven't end. For the past few years, students just need to do this for one semester, but when come to me, this is a disaster. You don't know how much I hate to attend this class. The contents are super boring and useless. Yea, it's about history of Malaysia, as a Malaysian I supposed to be patriotic enough and attended every single class. But what, A-level man, we got not enough time to struggle with biology, chemistry, psychology and etc and here come an extra. 

Now, I am doing my third semester of Malaysian study, it's call personal development programme (PDP). Lecturer said it would definitely help us in our way of university application. But hold on, we already done our application and now we're just waiting for the university to reply us. What use with this anymore?  Plus, it would help to develop our personality. Come on, we're teenager who know how to proceed our life, we know how to handle this.

 For me, what important right now is my A2 final exam which will go on five months later and I haven't even on the half way of it. So please, stop this stupid programme. Nobody like it, don't waste our time and the lecturer's precious time. We appreciated it. 

Sorry for being querulous. 

I need this to shoo my bad mood away. Between Christmas is 23 days after!