For you who are also studying or working aboard.
"It supposed to be hard because by that no one can replicate it." A quote that I noted down from a short video from facebook.
It has been a while since I last update myself. I am back to the UK to continue my year 2 study and it is almost an end with the finish of my semester 2 project. Just to rant a little here, I doubt myself a lot sometime, I lost confidence in myself, I wonder the hard work that I have done; will it gets payback? Anyway, I believe that God had arranged everything and will give us the chance if you tried, maybe not now, but someday.
Done with the updating part. Let's talk about the courage to explore life today. I have bought a flight ticket to Amsterdam and Cologne, departing next week - a backpack solo trip. I will say this is hard for me because backpacking in Europe countries alone is not that safe after all. There were plenty of bad news that bombarding the social media nowadays. Nonetheless, it never kills my intention to go out and explore the world, by myself. Always wanting to cross the "solo backpack trip" in my to-do-list and I knew that the 20-year old me can already do that. Parents are worried about this so much as they keep telling me to find a partner for the trip, but daddy mummy, I just want to go all out alone to know how far I can go without the help of others, to experience the feeling that I have not got a chance to do so, to have a stroll with my soul. I am good to go now, from booking a hostel to planning the schedules of the trips; I have done enough of preparation and ready to grab my backpack and have a try with it. A lot of my friends are telling me it is not a good choice to travel in the city of drugs, sex and bicycle. But I will then update them with the wonderful experience and people I meet there after next week.
Nothing to worry, let me go. I may seem to be like a girl who cannot take care of myself when I am around you, but you never know what I have done throughout this two years for me to survive in this country which is a totally new place for me at first. The courage and faith that God have implanted in me are infinite. Even I need to explore and fully utilise them, how can you judge me then?
"A person who never travel only read one page." A very classic quote that I have been holding on. In each of the trips, I learnt a lot, communicating with my travel companions, asking for help with the locals, bookings for good accommodation deals, reading a map......a lot a lot, which you may not have the chance to experience if you are still staying in your comfort zone. My mum always tells me, go if you still have the chance to do so. I am thankful for my parents, who are always in the same boat with me no matter what I did, where I go, and with their supports, I can go even further.
Two years in the UK, travelling around seven cities, and the eighth solo trip coming soon. The excitement in me is flooding up the fear. I have to say that I have so used to doing things alone when I start studying aboard. It is not the matter of how many friends I have here, it just can't come to a deal after all, and what I need to do is to go ahead by myself, because my idea is too difficult for them to handle sometime, or is just me.
Anyway, do it when you are still able to. Because after all, it is all for the pride of yourself. Don't let regrets hit you hard later on, twenty-year-old can be a fantasy age which everything is still unsure and you can still give it a try and fail.
Michelle.
Thursday, 13 April 2017
Friday, 13 January 2017
Dearest best friend
Hello Liew Lee Mei,
It has been a long time since I last update my blog and this is a post that I suppose to write when the time we last meet up.
Still remember it's 22 September 2016. It's 2017 now. You are officially 21.
The memories still so clear in my mind, all the things that we did together during that Thursday, from the minute you reach my house till the second you drove away from my gate. I hope time will just stop at there and doubt why God want to arrange two people from such a far place to intersect together and become the good friend at the end. Thanks for coming all the way from KL to here although you know that your mum will be angry when the time she knew you drove so far. Thanks for accompanying me to the place I like the most back to hometown before the day I go back to the UK. Thanks for bearing with me when I drove into the wrong path to the beach although I drove to the place up to thousands time, but we have lots of fun on the car right? Actually, I cherish the time so much because we rarely own the time to sit down like this and have a great chat about how are we doing now. Thanks for going to the restaurant I love the most. Thanks for everything happening on that day. You know what I meant. Please, come here again if you have the time and the day when your mum allows you to drive this far. I am looking for more of our adventures no matter in Malaysia or all over to UK or Europe. I am always ready to go to the world with you because I knew at the end, you will still be by my side. 謝謝你好朋友， 希望很快就能見到你。
6th January 2017.
You were turning 21 and again I did not have a chance to celebrate with you. Haha but the WhatsApp call consider one? I have a shock when all of your friends actually knew who I am when the time I call you. And then I knew how important I am. (awhh) I don't actually help you to celebrate your birthday before beside the one when you are 19. Hopefully, your friends have given you a memorable birthday! Sincerely hope that I can invite you to my 21 birthday this year and you will be there. Happy 21th once again, liew lee mei. Thanks your mum for bringing you to this world and then become my best friend.
See you real soon?
Michelle.
It has been a long time since I last update my blog and this is a post that I suppose to write when the time we last meet up.
Still remember it's 22 September 2016. It's 2017 now. You are officially 21.
The memories still so clear in my mind, all the things that we did together during that Thursday, from the minute you reach my house till the second you drove away from my gate. I hope time will just stop at there and doubt why God want to arrange two people from such a far place to intersect together and become the good friend at the end. Thanks for coming all the way from KL to here although you know that your mum will be angry when the time she knew you drove so far. Thanks for accompanying me to the place I like the most back to hometown before the day I go back to the UK. Thanks for bearing with me when I drove into the wrong path to the beach although I drove to the place up to thousands time, but we have lots of fun on the car right? Actually, I cherish the time so much because we rarely own the time to sit down like this and have a great chat about how are we doing now. Thanks for going to the restaurant I love the most. Thanks for everything happening on that day. You know what I meant. Please, come here again if you have the time and the day when your mum allows you to drive this far. I am looking for more of our adventures no matter in Malaysia or all over to UK or Europe. I am always ready to go to the world with you because I knew at the end, you will still be by my side. 謝謝你好朋友， 希望很快就能見到你。
6th January 2017.
You were turning 21 and again I did not have a chance to celebrate with you. Haha but the WhatsApp call consider one? I have a shock when all of your friends actually knew who I am when the time I call you. And then I knew how important I am. (awhh) I don't actually help you to celebrate your birthday before beside the one when you are 19. Hopefully, your friends have given you a memorable birthday! Sincerely hope that I can invite you to my 21 birthday this year and you will be there. Happy 21th once again, liew lee mei. Thanks your mum for bringing you to this world and then become my best friend.
See you real soon?
Michelle.
Thursday, 8 September 2016
Growing up
Do you realize that you are already 20 years old this year? Do you even realise when you have stepped into another zone? The zone where filled with booms and you might get trap just after you step out.
Growing up, meaning that responsibility that placed on your shoulder become heavier. It does mean that you only need to responsible for your own meal, what time you shall go to bath, or what time you shall hang out with you friends. It is about your responsibility for your own future, even family. Now, it's time to really sit down and think about what can you do for your future so that you will not regret on that day when you look back or when you want to tell your little boy about your youth. It means that you shall now solve more life trouble by yourself, learning not to count on parents so much, although they're always there for you. But did you feel that it's enough for them to worry about us and enjoy what they suppose to have for now?
Eh, Michelle, I think it's time to find a part-time job to earn some pounds, a good intern to gain some valuable experiences for your own future, read a good book that can change your mind and go for a solo travel so that you can know what's deep inside yourself. Right?
Growing up, meaning that responsibility that placed on your shoulder become heavier. It does mean that you only need to responsible for your own meal, what time you shall go to bath, or what time you shall hang out with you friends. It is about your responsibility for your own future, even family. Now, it's time to really sit down and think about what can you do for your future so that you will not regret on that day when you look back or when you want to tell your little boy about your youth. It means that you shall now solve more life trouble by yourself, learning not to count on parents so much, although they're always there for you. But did you feel that it's enough for them to worry about us and enjoy what they suppose to have for now?
Eh, Michelle, I think it's time to find a part-time job to earn some pounds, a good intern to gain some valuable experiences for your own future, read a good book that can change your mind and go for a solo travel so that you can know what's deep inside yourself. Right?
Thursday, 11 August 2016
Good old day
How you define friend/best friend?
Little kids might tell you those who give them a sweet are their best friend. A primary school kid will claim those who stick together with them during the recess time as their best friend forever. A high school student might start to realize what true meaning of friendship is and start to develop the branches of the ship. They believe that whom who tell them all their secrets or spend most of their time with as their best friend. Yes, I will say a true friendship blossom at this moment, where you kind of know what the shape of the world is but you still in your own fairytale. This was the time when your friends know all your bad sides and still stay along side with you, this was the time when you spend most of your time having tuition classes and foods together with that gang of friends. Once you enter college, you start to realize how cruel this society meant to be and what was benefits all about. People start to approach you for different reasons, no longer only because they want to have a simple meal with you. You start to doubt what the word friend really meant about and started to miss the naive gang who you can contribute your laughter with.
I have a story to tell. I have this group of friends who stay aside with me from primary school to high school. Although there are some reasons that make us separate apart in between, we still manage to keep in touch until today. I am glad that I own this group of friends who I manage to sit down together and have a great dinner time with until now even though I have come back from Uk after a year and we didn't actually spend much time together. What I want to emphasis here was the invisible bond between us. We didn't stick together much after high school, we didn't reply to each other facebook picture this often. But I believe that we do stalk each other snapchat or Instagram a bit to update where are we know. I will not say that this is the perfect friendship that YOU guys shall look for, but I thank God for giving me this group of people in my life, who will come out to meet you if you call them, without a single reason but just to meet up.
Dear friends, we are now in the different field, different state, perhaps different country, persuading our own dream, but I hope that years after this, we still manage to come out and sit down in a roundtable, without anyone missing out, to tell our own story.
I never tell you guys how grateful I am to have you in my life, never even showcase a single photo of us in social media. Nevertheless, I am blessed, to have you guys as my friends, forever. Trust me, you guys are that group of people I will look back when I grow older. Those good old days will be the reason why we will still stick together after years, promise?
朋友，还是老的好
Little kids might tell you those who give them a sweet are their best friend. A primary school kid will claim those who stick together with them during the recess time as their best friend forever. A high school student might start to realize what true meaning of friendship is and start to develop the branches of the ship. They believe that whom who tell them all their secrets or spend most of their time with as their best friend. Yes, I will say a true friendship blossom at this moment, where you kind of know what the shape of the world is but you still in your own fairytale. This was the time when your friends know all your bad sides and still stay along side with you, this was the time when you spend most of your time having tuition classes and foods together with that gang of friends. Once you enter college, you start to realize how cruel this society meant to be and what was benefits all about. People start to approach you for different reasons, no longer only because they want to have a simple meal with you. You start to doubt what the word friend really meant about and started to miss the naive gang who you can contribute your laughter with.
I have a story to tell. I have this group of friends who stay aside with me from primary school to high school. Although there are some reasons that make us separate apart in between, we still manage to keep in touch until today. I am glad that I own this group of friends who I manage to sit down together and have a great dinner time with until now even though I have come back from Uk after a year and we didn't actually spend much time together. What I want to emphasis here was the invisible bond between us. We didn't stick together much after high school, we didn't reply to each other facebook picture this often. But I believe that we do stalk each other snapchat or Instagram a bit to update where are we know. I will not say that this is the perfect friendship that YOU guys shall look for, but I thank God for giving me this group of people in my life, who will come out to meet you if you call them, without a single reason but just to meet up.
Dear friends, we are now in the different field, different state, perhaps different country, persuading our own dream, but I hope that years after this, we still manage to come out and sit down in a roundtable, without anyone missing out, to tell our own story.
I never tell you guys how grateful I am to have you in my life, never even showcase a single photo of us in social media. Nevertheless, I am blessed, to have you guys as my friends, forever. Trust me, you guys are that group of people I will look back when I grow older. Those good old days will be the reason why we will still stick together after years, promise?
朋友，还是老的好
Saturday, 11 June 2016
another count down begin
" For all the tourists, welcome to Malaysia. For all the Malaysians, welcome home." The pilot of Malaysia Airline announced during the touchdown.
After all the hectic missing flight and overnight in the London Heathrow Airport experiences, I am back to the place I grew up yesterday. It had been nine months. Having a WhatsApp's call to daddy telling him I had touched down. Hearing daddy's voice coming out from the phone, it was so different from the skype call because this time I knew that I will see him in an hour time. Mummy and brothers were standing at the departure hall waiting for my arrival. I was thinking how to react to them in the first second when I saw them. None of the scenes in my mind happen, but my heart was flooding with tears.
The weather was 13-degree celsius hotter than in the UK. The clouds in the sky were ten times more than those in the UK. Although the air was a little more polluted, it is still the place I love after months. Failing to collect my luggage, it forced myself to approach the Malay officer to ask about that. Time to use the long lost Malay and I realize that it was extremely hard to even come out with a proper Malay sentence. Anyway, I am still proud of the fact that I was able to speak Malay after a long time. I used to tell my UK friends how proud am I to be a Malaysian who know more than three languages and can use them all in a sentence. Sweating all the way in the car in the journey back home, despite the air conditioning was at the maximum level. Looking out through the window, the scenery changed a little. But the atmosphere in the car was still the same, as heart-warming as before.
The ending of the "back home" countdown meant that another countdown began without me noticing, which is " back to UK".
After all the hectic missing flight and overnight in the London Heathrow Airport experiences, I am back to the place I grew up yesterday. It had been nine months. Having a WhatsApp's call to daddy telling him I had touched down. Hearing daddy's voice coming out from the phone, it was so different from the skype call because this time I knew that I will see him in an hour time. Mummy and brothers were standing at the departure hall waiting for my arrival. I was thinking how to react to them in the first second when I saw them. None of the scenes in my mind happen, but my heart was flooding with tears.
The weather was 13-degree celsius hotter than in the UK. The clouds in the sky were ten times more than those in the UK. Although the air was a little more polluted, it is still the place I love after months. Failing to collect my luggage, it forced myself to approach the Malay officer to ask about that. Time to use the long lost Malay and I realize that it was extremely hard to even come out with a proper Malay sentence. Anyway, I am still proud of the fact that I was able to speak Malay after a long time. I used to tell my UK friends how proud am I to be a Malaysian who know more than three languages and can use them all in a sentence. Sweating all the way in the car in the journey back home, despite the air conditioning was at the maximum level. Looking out through the window, the scenery changed a little. But the atmosphere in the car was still the same, as heart-warming as before.
The ending of the "back home" countdown meant that another countdown began without me noticing, which is " back to UK".
Tuesday, 31 May 2016
one day.
30th May 2016. One year before, we step out from the examination hall finish our last A-level paper, waiting for the realising of the result and head to the university that we longing for since the first day of college. One year after that, I am fully done with my year 1. Can't believe how fast time flies. It has been 9 months away from home, and 7 days to the day I can go home again. It is fast, I am packing my suitcase right now.
Just finish watching a Chinese movie, it was expectedly nice. Since when I start to stay up whole night watching Chinese movie? Recently. It has been a habit before sleeping. I don't know why, but the storyline tugs my heartstring every time when the movie end. [One Minute More], a Taiwan production starring Janine Chang and Peter Ho plus a golden retriever. Story buds with the adoption of a baby golden retriever and displaying the relationship between the main characters. The relationship between animal and human is delicate, too many people have adopted a pet and took it as part of the family member. There is an invisible string linking the pet and human, a string that will never break. Experiencing a breakdown while watching the movie when the golden retriever is at it edge of life and how it act towards the one who adopts it when someone abandon it at the pet shop.
Life was short. For a puppy, our one month is half a year for them. It reminds me of how much time which I still able to stay beside family and share all the important milestone with them. Too little time.
Just finish watching a Chinese movie, it was expectedly nice. Since when I start to stay up whole night watching Chinese movie? Recently. It has been a habit before sleeping. I don't know why, but the storyline tugs my heartstring every time when the movie end. [One Minute More], a Taiwan production starring Janine Chang and Peter Ho plus a golden retriever. Story buds with the adoption of a baby golden retriever and displaying the relationship between the main characters. The relationship between animal and human is delicate, too many people have adopted a pet and took it as part of the family member. There is an invisible string linking the pet and human, a string that will never break. Experiencing a breakdown while watching the movie when the golden retriever is at it edge of life and how it act towards the one who adopts it when someone abandon it at the pet shop.
Life was short. For a puppy, our one month is half a year for them. It reminds me of how much time which I still able to stay beside family and share all the important milestone with them. Too little time.
Friday, 13 May 2016
First stop, done
Thursday again, and it is final review for my last project in year one architecture. P4 live/work Belfast officially end.
I won't mention about how many sleepless nights I dedicated to this project, how many meals I have skipped just to get the things done, how stressful am I just to catch up with the time and the workload, because by far, I cope it well. Being thankful and blessed, I am enjoying what I have done so far and all of them are done in joy.
Every single word mentioned by tutor never get left behind my brain. From the first day I step into this school, I knew something amazing will happen, but I don't know that it would happen so fast. Year one, 9 months, from zero to what we have today, it was totally out of expectation. I thought that I won't have the ability to think out of the box, come out with some amazing shape and impressive building, but I think I am looking down at myself. With the consistent pushing by the tutor and all the incredible classmates' work, I think we all have grown up preparing ourselves to build something prestigious in this land. The journey was just at 1 mile out of 10 miles. There are definitely tonnes of obstacles in front of the road, but having faith in myself, it is possible to overcome all of the resistances and reach the victory at the end, making everyone who looks down at me to clap for me at the finishing line.
Nothing is impossible, what I have achieved today proved that. Done with my final review, with the confident I have in my own design, I owned a good feedback at the end.
Designing is not about having a perfect idea in one goal, but having several trials and learn in the process, and proudly said that "I did it".
Again, I am grateful, thanks to my parents who never fail to support me on my road to persuade my dream, which they knew that the road will be extremely hard for me. So far, I think I have yet proved to them that I am on the right path, right?
Year one, architecture, end.
sneak peek of my last project...
I won't mention about how many sleepless nights I dedicated to this project, how many meals I have skipped just to get the things done, how stressful am I just to catch up with the time and the workload, because by far, I cope it well. Being thankful and blessed, I am enjoying what I have done so far and all of them are done in joy.
Every single word mentioned by tutor never get left behind my brain. From the first day I step into this school, I knew something amazing will happen, but I don't know that it would happen so fast. Year one, 9 months, from zero to what we have today, it was totally out of expectation. I thought that I won't have the ability to think out of the box, come out with some amazing shape and impressive building, but I think I am looking down at myself. With the consistent pushing by the tutor and all the incredible classmates' work, I think we all have grown up preparing ourselves to build something prestigious in this land. The journey was just at 1 mile out of 10 miles. There are definitely tonnes of obstacles in front of the road, but having faith in myself, it is possible to overcome all of the resistances and reach the victory at the end, making everyone who looks down at me to clap for me at the finishing line.
Nothing is impossible, what I have achieved today proved that. Done with my final review, with the confident I have in my own design, I owned a good feedback at the end.
Designing is not about having a perfect idea in one goal, but having several trials and learn in the process, and proudly said that "I did it".
Again, I am grateful, thanks to my parents who never fail to support me on my road to persuade my dream, which they knew that the road will be extremely hard for me. So far, I think I have yet proved to them that I am on the right path, right?
Year one, architecture, end.
sneak peek of my last project...
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