Getaway

On the way to Dublin, Ireland.

I'm studying in norther Ireland, which is part of the uk but not Ireland. Friends always get confused and I need to show them the world map. 

Just finish all the assignments submission, a portfolio, history essay and technology and material pamphlet. There's still a week more to the start of semester 2. Slacking in room is not a good idea, that's why go for a trip. 

Sitting on the bus towards Dublin, alone. The sceneries along the road are extremely nice. Big lawn, sunshine, and the sheeps on the greens... A long highway leading to the another country. I ask parent before I made my mind to go for a trip and told them how much I will spend. They always answer:

" Just explore. Because you have the chance to." 

I feel sad everytime they told me this because I owe them too much. Daddy, mummy, wait until the day I become a better girl, I will pay back. 

Here come the five days of Dublin trip! 

_szeyeeM 

Deep inside

Colour of nature.

Skype calling parents…

They are busy, not a boss of a company, but still, they are busy. I turn on skype almost every hour just to check whether they are online, just to share with them things that I go through here. I am urge to tell them what is happening around and what goes into my eyes. But time zone doesn't allow me to do so.

Sometime, I am glad for the invention of technology, because I feel no gap with them after months away from home. I can see them having dinner, doing outing with them, shopping for Chinese New Year groceries and clothes… Just without touching everything, isn't it nice? I feel no different.

When they send me foods that they are having, I am quite jealous of the simple life they are leading. Everyone has a big dream to go oversea study, saying that the sceneries out there are better than home. But when you decided to take a flight to somewhere thousand miles away, you start to realise that the mountain behind house is so nice, the sea breeze is no different from oversea, even more comfortable, the foods from the mamak stall are so delicious compare to the western food that we have to use fork and knife to eat, the uncle from the hawker centre is so friendly with the mixing of languages, the home is still the nicest shelter…

After years of exploring at the place half earth away from home, I think I will definitely hold my decision firmly to go back home and start my life there again. Because I miss how we order a roti canai at mamak stall. "Boss, roti canai satu!"

_szeyeeM

141 days count down

It had been months since I step into this beautiful country. Hasn't fall in love with it but at least I already used to the life here. Having a visit to London during the Christmas break was an amazing getaway. London, a place that most of the students will aim as a place where their alma matter located, maybe not you, but I am. Breathing London's aroma for eight days, walking for hours just to get a view of London eye, Tower bridge or even Trafalgar Square. How much I wish my parents and best friend are with me when I am taking every new steps on the land, tasting the nice foods in a grand restaurant, viewing a gigantic scenery that they only can see it through the photo I sent via whatsapp. That's why I cherish all the seconds that I am having here enjoying life. I feel grateful for all the supports that they have given me throughout the months, not orally, but I feel that all little actions are tugging my heartstrings.

Four months away from home, done with my semester 1 with a good hand in of portfolio,  I start to realise so many things in life which do not meant to be guaranteed. Life is not about guaranteed of something but taking a risk to explore. I start to think that where is my 'shelter' now. Going back home once in a year, is Belfast my real home now? Definitely no. When I am having a skype with my family, I saw corners of house, and I still can feel the temperature of the floor. The only thing that changes was my thoughts. Realising that there's no much time for me to spend in home for these three years of studying aboard or even of my entire life, I start to control my emotions and speaking nicely with my parents when I got a chance to see them in the screen. I knew, neither sending me aboard to continue my study or sending money to my bank account every months is part of their responsibility, but they did all that, just to let me have no regret for the rest of my life. I am especially blessed for all I get today. 

Best friend, there are no much time for use to meet up back home as well as now. Nevertheless the feeling is so different just because we are on a different land now. How much I hope you're here beside me when I am experiencing all the ups and downs. You say that England is the place that you wish to visit the most, I hope that one day I have a chance to bring you strolling around  this wonderful place. I can't wait to go back and meet you, seriously. 

A piece of art with perfect edges was beautiful, but with the sophisticated uneven lines across it was phenomenal. Did not hoping much for life now because I am enjoying the luxury of life.
Oh ya, happy new year people!

Blessed, 

_szeyeeM