Understanding

I like to lying on my bed doing nothing but I knew I need to get up and do something. 

I like to spend my day playing piano but not the stupid basic scales again and again. 

I like to draw and send card but just for those who are important to me.

I like to have a great long chat with you but just if you're super close to me or not I will try to end our conversation as fast as possible. 

I like to travel alone because I dislike the unpunctual attitude and I am not that kind of people who will yield your negativity. But it's different story if you're best friend of mine.

I like to hang around and take photo of nature because I believe in creation on God.

I dislike people to yell at me when I'm doing something wrong instead of telling me the right one.

I dislike people to higher their volume in a chat as if they want to start a fight. 

I like harmonious, simple, joyful life. 

But you will never know. I'm going on my way, sailing my own sail. One day, when you're increasing your volume and I no longer reply you, it's the day I give up on the conversation. I knew that if I keep go the chat, I will probably commence a quarrel, I don't want that to happen. I prefer you to tell me in a softer way, I will keep your words in my mind if you did that. Parent. 

Tomorrow daddy is going to US. I call family out for a supper not because I'm hungry. Everytime when daddy was going for an oversea business trip since MH 370 aviation accident happened, I scared that that will be the last time I say good bye with my daddy. I catched every chance to communicate and take the time with daddy before the flight just to not let me regret later. Dad called me out for a mamak session last day but I refused to. I took the initiative to compensate the refuse last night. Nevertheless, what brothers and mum did are playing and taking their own sweet time with the phones.

 HELLO CAN YOU PLEASE JUST RESPECT A BIT? 

I cherish the time with you guys, but I think is just only me who seem this important. 

You don't know the meaning of every actions of mine. Fine. 

Reader, sorry if this article offense you again but this is the best way I can voice out my feeling without much people knowing. 

_szeyeeM 

Happiness

It can be as simple as the smile on your grandparent's face because you bought an Mc Donald's sundae chocolate for them.

It can be as hard as loving one person but you can't feel their breath and heartbeats. 

It can be as complex as traveling around the world, bring your soul into the country and you no longer get over it. 

It is an illusion, hard to get but easy to feel it if you enjoy things which are happening. 

It is like a photo, you can't capture an exact same one after that but you can keep the photo now and forever. 

Catch the second. 

Why not to take a family portrait when everyone is still around? For the sake of remembrance. Why not to show the love to parent and grandparent when they are still with you and can communicate with you with their wise words and their life's experience? Just for the sake of not to regret after they are no longer there for us. Why not to wake up one hour earlier to enjoy the gigantic sunrise? Although there will be another one tomorrow, who know what will happen on the next minute? Catch every moment of God's creation, for the sake of yourself. Why not to book an airplane ticket to travel oversea, to enjoy their culture and the different atmosphere on their motherland, with family or with the best friends? Just for the sake of exploring and experiencing life. 

Being happy deep from heart is not easy. The girl in front of you is smiling brightly, but can you see what is happening deep inside the soul? You can't. Nobody is as transparent as a glass. Reading one people mind is hard, even if you're a psychologist. Nobody is as crystal clear as the Great Ocean. Knowing what intention of ones approaching you is extremely hard. You don't know there's a killing knife or a helping hand.

Being naive is not wrong, but it's a little hard to survive in world nowadays. Be a bad guy with an angel's heart perhaps?



What is happiness?
 Happiness is_______ ( clearly defined by yourself )

_szeyeeM