Downs

I sent an email to Cambridge to confirm about my interview session which will occur in a couple of weeks. I had been swipe through my email this few days to make sure that I didn't miss out any single email from all the universities. But I get nothing from Newnham college and I wrote an email to them. 

The reply I get is in my expectation. " We appreciate your hard work of applying to Cambridge. Your current academic historys were all well done. But we can't make it to interview you." 

I didn't feel down when the moment I get this reply. My mind told me:" don't feel sorrow Michelle, at least you tried, at least you got the courage to try out this part that will definitely be a reminiscer in your future."  I didn't regret to fill in COPA form three months ago. I still thanks to those who encourage me to do this. 

Daddy mummy, don't worry about me. I'm still the A level student who doing well in life. Without this, my life still go on. I still can go into other reputable universities other than Cambridge. Sorry I wasted your money to apply and send in all the document to UK. But I know you guys are always with me, right? 

Yes, getting into Cambridge is my dream. I won't let this dream fade out. Continue working hard in life is definite. Life still go on, this is just a tinny little part of life.

Believe every single thing that occur in myself, because I knew that it comes with a reason. 

Architecture was still my dream, and I'm working towards it. 

        

More than friend.

The one who I cherish the most in life other than my family members.  

I was over the moon to meet you again because this is out of expectation. I cherish every moment for us to meet up and hang out because I knew that the counts for us to hang getting less and less. 

I will go there again if there's a chance :D 

Thanks for the every minute of happiness you gave me. I treasured it because it's hard to find another one like you at subang or other place else. 

Take a break in the middle of hectic life.

After three weeks of antigenic concealment in hostel because of the A levels final exam, I missed my family so much. Miss the brothers, miss the selfie-daddy, miss the mummy. 

They paid a short visit to subang last Saturday to send off my brother for an interview, and of course they brought me for an outing! 

Seriously, I had missed a lot of fun time with them. I can't be beside them for 24-hour daily like before. This make me really cherish the time with them and no more quarrel between us. Because I knew that, every moment spent with them counted. 

Haha. Yes, they bought me a new phone-iPhone 6! Idk they come here just to buy me a phone seriously. I didn't complaint about my phone before, I didn't demand for a new phone, but they said is time for me to change the old-style iPhone 4s. So, thanks mummy for the phone! 

Don't know since when, my album is full of family selfie. They're addicted. To try off the future of the phone, they started to take tones of selfies with my phone. I think after this, my phone will be their personal camera. And that's the first group of photos in my phone :) 

Time with parents and family counted. Be kind to them. Parents didn't owe us a thing, we as a kid does owe them something. Do our part, parents brought us to this world. We can't see the front story of our parents' life, they couldn't see our ending of life too. 

cherish them :) 

Journey to future.

I'm a Malaysian, A Level student as you knew.

Last few months, I'm busy preparing for my AS final examination and I need to catch up with my UCAS application.  I'm a Cambridge applicants, so my due date to submit my UCAS will be way earlier than other. After attempting to fill in COPA, I have a deep feeling that UCAS is just a tiny sand comparing to COPA. Filing in COPA do need some time and effort, you really need to know about yourself, and what's your plan for the course that you're going to do in the next few years, what's the effort that you paid off in order to go into Cambridge to do this course. So, I put my application form to Newnham college, which is a girl's college. And now, I had sent off the written essays that they required and waiting for the short listing of interview! I'm over excited to be interview at UK in Cambridge itself if I get the interview invitation. I hope I can, joining Cambridge is not a preposterous thing, it just need a dream and your full effort. 

                   "nothing is effortless" 

For the others four universities - Bath, Cardiff, Newcastle and Sheffield. I had sent off my portfolio to them. I hope my portfolio with the title of " A Malaysian" will truly impressed them and give me a conditional offer to the particular university. I am not an art student in A level. So I hope that my artworks that I included in the portfolio are enough for them. Here is a short preview of my portfolio. 

                 

             "Pray" 

Be strong, my girl.

Do you think about these questions before?

" will you feel sad when your best friend is facing a life's dilemma?"

" when is your next meet up with your buddy?"

" will it be at a birthday function? Or a movie date?" 

       " the late one will go where?" 

"How fragile a life is?" 

I think that this is the only way to express my feeling now.

 I don't know that our next meet is now, in your daddy's funeral. I knew you're sad, I knew you're depressed, I knew you miss everything about your daddy, I knew that how important daddy plays a role in a home, I knew how you feel. When the moment I get know of this message, I was stunned, I don't know what to do, what should I send to you to make you feel better. I cried, like seriously, like how I lost a relative or someone close to me. Although I didn't meet your daddy before this, I knew that he's the best man in your life. Although he never meet me before, I will let him know that I'm your bestie. 

I don't know am I a good listener, am I a good companion, am I a good friend, but remember you're a little organ in my body. I definitely knew that I am not the one you will refer to when you're sad, but I will always be here for you. Definitely I will go oversea for my further study, and we will just meet up like once in a year at that moment, but please know that no one with the golden hair or fair good-looking guy can replace the position of you in my heart. Maybe I am not a good person to say to, because I don't know how to reply any single dilemma that you face. I must admit that I'm a kid full of happiness, I never meet such miserable thing in my life, I can't feel your exact feeling, but I can feel how sad you're.  I can sit there spending my time with you, just a message, I will be there, if I could. 

But my girl, cried when you need. Daddy will know you miss him. Don't always be the strongest girl among us, don't always wearing your mask, sometime, you can really have a rest and find a shoulder for you to count on. after this, live life like usual to let your daddy know that you're alright. You can help him to take a breath at this blue planet. My daddy always yours too! 

" Any single angel who leave this world will bring another new soul around us."

" I can't feel what you feel,  but I can feel your sadness and sorrowful. I offer my deepest condolence to uncle. BE STRONG, my strong-minded bestie." 

" uncle Liew, rest in peace."

"顧里有時也會累，也會想哭，那就暫時拿下皇冠。"

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